Jos.was.here.

Paranoid me

The symptons are back and the worries is here again as the date of the release of examination result is around the corner. I start to have worries regarding my OBC examination again. I do not wish to change course nor delay in my graduation, neither do I want to have a screw-up GPA.

Hais, I can't sleep right now, just appealed to NP's examination board, the upper management is going to host a meeting this coming Wednesday regarding my case and I really don't wish to repeat the module or have a lousy grade for it. I studied hard enough for it. Those sleepless night that I've never felt before during my O'level. I just don't bare to see it going down the drain.

I do not want to disappoint any of my secondary school teacher who is having high hope in me. In their eyes, I'm always the hardworking one who hand in my work and be attentive in class. Imagine one day I walk up to Mrs Yeo who was my Chemistry teacher and I tell her this, "I'm repeating poly", how will she feel about me?

I just don't believe I'm in the verge of doing so bad academically. I've never feared any examination in my life before but this is the first time, for the very first time, I felt so hopeless and isn't really confident about the outcomes.

I have greater commitment in my life this year and I promised myself from the start that I'm not going to neglect my studies ever again and now, things are different. There's a saying which goes like this, "your greatest emeny is not anyone else but yourself, to beat yourself is to improve yourself" (Familar for those who watched wei xiao pasta from youtube?)

I just do not want to make another stupid mistake again. Bless me everyone.

posted by JosEph`- @ 2:01 AM